SinnerDom

Doggers sent me a note wishing me Merry Christmas and asking if I was OK...well...gotta tell you guys I'm really really fucking depressed and ...well...this is the reply I sent him. I just copy/pasted it.

Well....No I'm not OK.
But Merry Christmas to you.

I have bought Core as you probably noticed and pop into DA pretty regularly...but...this is what happened.
November second I lost my(main)  job...which I'd had for about five years. That knocked out about a third of my income. It wasn't just the loss of the job it was the way it was done...really sucked.

Then on Nov 20...day before my birthday my brother who had been really sick...died. Bam..

According to the hospital it was a massive coronary and though they tried they could not stop it..
I had just driven him to the hospital on the Friday...and he died on Monday morning...it was a total fucking shock since while he was sick he was also two years younger than me.

So....no I'm not OK...and no I don't feel like talking much.

Just feel like being alone...and I'm drinking a bit too much too..can't help it.

Yeah...depressed and really don't want to talk about it don't want the cheering up...the sympathy...the whatever...I'm totally fucked  up.

I'll get over it eventually but fuck...it will take some time...meanwhile I have time because I'm not working but I'm not over my brother's death so I'm doing shit.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year...ho ho ho.

In case you missed it - like I did - here is a link to a much better memorial than I can produce on Jolly Jack's page.


RIP Alfonso AzpiriBack in the days when I was a young, impressionable lad, I bought the Heavy Metal anthology magazine…. because tits.
Also: it had comics that bore an art style that was very different from my (then) diet of Uncanny XMen. Of the many works on display, it was that of Spanish artist Alfonso Azpiri that really caught my eye. His comics were these weird, organic-looking masterpieces, where the line-work flowed across the page like water. The wonderful way he detailed hair and cloth really influenced my own method of rendering such material, as the keen eyed can probably tell!
Also: tits.
Unfortunately, I was informed via Twitter that the good Mr Azpiri had died earlier this month.
For those unfamiliar with his work: there’s a glut of material out there for you to discover.
For us fans…..sadly, no more
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alfonso_Azpiri


Though I have to say Azpiri was a *huge* influence on me. I bought Heavy Metal mags just because his art was in them. I especially bought Penhouse Comix when it hit Canadian shelves again..just because of him and especially sought out the uncensored versions of certain issues because..dammit...how *dare* they censor art!!!...
There are even a few images in my "scraps" section where his influence are blatantly obvious as I've deliberate emulated his style. I've even experimented numerous times with watercolour and fluid acrylics just to see if I could get the hang of what he's doing..rather than the strict limits that the computer imposes on colouring...sometimes doing what he does can be quite liberating even while it imposes its own restrictions.
Anyway - he will be missed. 

Edited long afterwards with great regrets.
I wrote the following when I was pissed off and angry shortly after the riots in Charlottesville and while I was feeling a lot of negativity towards americans american politicians and southerners...(white fascist republican ones anyway)
But...
Sorry - I had no idea what kind of misery those hurricanes were going to unleash and the heroism that would be displayed in the aftermath.
So now now I tend to I'm thinking of this entry below in more a context of the dystopian novels I've been reading lately...the stuff that is going to happen eventually if not soon and. Pure fiction and free of prejudice or personal feeling..just fiction.




All Hell is breaking loose in S. Texas...

modified..

and justified..

Because that is a God..*justified*..bog fearing place.

And as the well overdue and predictified...*sp* ...fucktifed....for american audiences
know that is a hell hammer they have been just been squirming for in
anticipation.
John ...eye rolls...

and with a nod to his "murrican" colleagues..
"don't say that"..
John continues..for the sake of my... "American colleagues..for the British audience..and the Canadian audience..and
anyone else who can spell.."
That thing is going to "hit hard"..
It is overdue. "

Y'know..years later...

Planting mangroves up the coast..is just quaint.

For those who tend towards to ...survivalist....stuck down there in the south...sinking...flooding..you are welcome to that.

The new walls will be to extreme south and more importantly to the North.

Oh..we will build the walls...Never fucking doubt.

There will be checks at the border  where your blood will be screened for pigment...

pureblood caucasians will be shoved back into the swamp hell of the flooded South..

Your survivalist skills will have to really do you well then boy...looking after your ol grandma...wife..kids...wallowing in the growing swamp that the southern hemisphere will become.

You invite your enemies out to go deer hunting
and years later
they scrape for DNA at the cousins pig farm

This was a cheerful chat on Sl w someone.
and I'm supposed to not be in SL these days...

She was *so* happy to see me...yay...happy happy..
She is a N. American...and..I just happened to throw out...oh yeah..
you are one of those types..
..the above....
and she laughed...
"got it in one"
she said..


spine chilling ..